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Betrayal of Friends

Wednesday, 4 March 2015 • 17:42 • 0 comments

ISecond post but it's gonna be a long post

遭到朋友的欺骗、背叛和伤害时，受到打击是一定的。
不过我们更要懂得怎么保护自己。
怎么样坚强起来！

Sometimes in life, things don't go the way we want it.
They wouldn't turn out the way that we want it.
That's why we can never predict what is gonna be happening in the next seconds, minutes, hours or days in our life.
Never would we know, the person who we thought are the closest to ourselves, or the person that you thought you could believe in might just stab you in the back.

I always believe in this saying, "If you treat people right they will treat you right." I DO still believe in that now, but i learnt that it just does not applies on everyone in your life.

People come and go.. Loyal ones stays through thicks and thins, people who goes did not treasure and cherish the friendship as much as one do.

Recently, many things happened between a friend of mine and I..

Actually I didn't just realised the problem between us recently, I thought that the problem could be solved if we were to talk things out and I would just have to give in more and be the one who forgive first when a conflict or misunderstood happened. But I was wrong...

Things turned out differently from what I thought, and it became worst.

Let's not talk about the character between me and her, since it's of a big different.

Despite of that, I am always giving in. I can totally swear upon to everyone about that. When things happened, in terms of not wanting to push any blames or explanations or excuses, I am always the one who give in and apologise first even though it's not my fault.

When she's angry, she can just show some bad face, bad attitude and just walk off, but NEVER once did she apologise to anyone about it. Even when it's during a group project discussion.

All that she know for herself was that "I'm not at fault at all, they were the ones".

How can it be the fault of others when she was the one who didn't speak up during discussion, and pushed the blame to others on saying that "nobody asked on anything what, you all just discuss by yourself lorh", and yes, it's a group discussion and everyone have to discuss together and speak up on their ideas. But, how can it be the fault of others when everyone was speaking up and she was the only one who was just keeping quiet even when others asked her on her opinion, she would just say "nothing".

Have you ever have a friend like this?

Thus recently, things got worst and I don't even know how it happen and how did it reached till such a stage that I think I could no longer trust this "friend" of mine and the best way was to keep a distance from her through the things I can talk or share with her.

During school days, her attitude has alrdy gotten worst and slowly her real-self is coming out.

Internship is starting and I thought probably she would be changing for the better, since we are already half-step stepping into the society world. I have already predict for the bad part, but I didn't know that was happened was worst than what I had predicted.

Getting into the same internship company as her, I don't know if I should counted it as happy or sad.. But there's something that I know very clearly, was that, there will be many changes and 6months of torturing is what I have to go through.

Just the third week of intern, she started to show bad attitude and black face to me, AND it's ONLY towards me.

If you asked me "why?" I would answer you, "I really don't know why.."

It can be in a case where, she don't even say hi or smile to me when I reached our workplace. We did not even talk for the whole morning and until lunch break(that's when we usually get to talk, cause our office seats are far from each other), when I walk towards her table happily, she could be just standing up looking at me with that stern face or just turn her back on me while walking towards the group(our colleagues who are standing at the door waiting to go downstairs for lunch).

Can you imagine what just happened?

I did not even get to talk or text for before and from the moment I see her, but she would just ONLY give me that angry face/stern look, while smiling and joking to the other colleagues.

Once or twice is fine.. More than thrice, I really can't stand it anymore.

What I do now?

Just ignore her nonsense and just continue being who I am, and how I treated everyone nicely... When she wants to talk to me, she will come and talk to me. When she needs my help, she will approach me.

Beside her nonsense and bad attitude, what I can't really stand was her "acting" and lies. I always thought that I could count on her, and she could be the friend that I can trust on. But I was wrong..

It was just the second week of intern, my boss needed just ONE person to help him out during a event.

Another colleague was very enthu for helping out at the event but she was unsure if she will be free on that day. I was quite enthu to actually volunteer to go help out for the event as it would be good chance for a intern to know and learn more experiences. While this friend of mine was asking if the another colleague or me will be going to help out at the event. I wasn't sure anyway, cause if I'm not able to help out, it wouldn't be a problem for me too, as I will be going out with my friends around the timing when the event is ending.

I told her I'm fine with it, and she insist on me to ask the another colleague if she's going to help out. I was thinking, why can't she just ask the colleague herself instead of me.

As she insisted on asking who is the Only ONE helping out for the event, I asked her if she was the one who wants to help out at the event? Immediately, she didn't replied back to my last message.

Halfway at work, I went to the toilet. When I was walking back to the office from the toilet, I saw her talking with lady boss, and for a moment I thought she was getting a scolding because of her standing posture.

But as I walk pass lady boss and her, I overheard her asking lady boss on the details of the event and what will her task be during the event.

Right at that moment, I felt betrayal filling up from my head to toe, inner and outside of my body too.. I was speechless right at that moment and didn't know what to say to her.

After work, I even asked if she will be going for the event, she told me "Nol.

On the event day itself while we were preparing to leave the office for home, lady boss called for her and was talking quite loudly in the office asking her not to be late for the event and make sure she knows where the location is.

Isn't it a epic moment?

Because I was just standing beside her when lady boss was giving out instructions to her and the task she will need to do during the event itself.

I saw it from the corner of my eyes, She was giving me small peeps and giving that guilty eyes look when I turn and look at her in shocked when lady boss was talking to her.

When we left the office, I asked her "are you going for the event later to help out for lady boss?", her answered towards me makes me feel even more speechless.

She said "no larh, I'm going out later with to celebrate for new year eve"

Right until the end, she was still lying... At night, she even post a tweet saying about the new experience she gain..

Best acting award isn't it?

Luckily I woke up my mind and heart to see even more clearly on who she is before I nearly gave out my trust towards her. Of course I feel bad talking bad things about others, but her actions really hurts me badly, and I felt betrayed and as though I'm together with a friend who is holding on to many knifes in prepared to stab any one of it into my back whenever she wants it to.

Just the sight thinking of her bad attitude towards me and JUST ME, and also that mouth of her that is full pack and pack of lies. I feel so disgusted knowing someone like her.

BUT I will never fake my attitude towards her, but instead I continue to treat her good, as a friend.. Just a common classmate, a colleague and just a normal friend, never of that terms "good friend" or "sister" that I used on her before I saw her true-self.

Just that, I stopped telling and sharing things to her about work, about me or about anything unless she asked or when I feel that she really need the help from that problem, such as work. Other than that, it's definitely a zip on my mouth that will never open up towards her.

You can never judge a person by it's cover. If she was a book, she would be on the Climax part of the storyline. What's the ending of her story is gonna be up to her.

I bet that, if she is gonna continue with this kind of attitude at everywhere or anywhere she is, she is really gonna suffer and lose badly at the end. Which brings her story to a sad ending.

But if she starts changing for the better, and have a more beautiful inner beauty instead of caring more on what's place onto her or around her, she would definitely earn and deserve for the better and with a happy ending at the end of her chapter.

But always remember, NEVER to treat someone badly even if they treat you in a way that you can't tolerate anymore.

The best thing to do is to just walk away.

When it reached the limit, give No warning and no more chances, just walk away from someone who doesn't know how to appreciate you in yours and their life.

Everyone only get to live ONCE, and everyone definitely deserve better and more happiness in their life.

The most important thing is that, be someone who is nice, and definitely with a beautiful inner beauty.

When you have inner beauty, people will always see you as someone who is beautiful or handsome.

Things and accessories that you own on or around you does not define who you are in this world.

Kindness, Happiness, Sincerity, etc on all the good character in you is what define you the best in this world.

Loyal friends are even harder to find now as society changes... Treasure and cherish the loyal friends who are sincere to you, and stay by you through your thick and thins and especially those who are there for you when you needed some hugs and comfort.

Most of all, may all the true friendship in the world last long and build more stronger friendship, loyalty and happiness in this complicated human world! <3

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